You arent alone. I have a lot of changes going on too and also refuse to take my meds anymore. Just didn't believe they were helping me. I have been off them for 5 months now and feel the same as I did when I was on them. Hope you start feeling better. Keep your head up and try to stay postive. Crush the negative thoughts the second they creep into your mind.

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