nothing changes <font color="blue"> Of course it does, and will again </font>
nothing will ever change <font color="blue"> This is still your depression talking. Try to stop this thought, it isn't true.]</font>
i dont want it to most days <font color="blue"> Yes, depression sucks us so far down it becomes what we know and are strangely comforted by it</font>
what the hell wood i be then <font color="blue"> Be when? </font>
ive been like this my whole life <font color="blue"> Depression tells us lies and makes it so we can't see the truth.</font>
i woodnt know who i wood be <font color="blue"> Yes, the unknown can be scarey, but you are someone, and can be better in the future too!</font>
im scared and so i dont want to face it <font color="blue"> this might be part of what's behind not wanting to NOT be depressed, that ppl will expect things from you that you don't feel able to do or be</font>
and im tryin to be strong<font color="blue"> strength is good, and you are strong. </font>
but im weakenin by the day<font color="blue"> continue to resist the dark, think on lovely things: nature, music whatever!</font>
i will build up a resistance and then it will slowly fade away<font color="blue"> Yes, it is an ongoing effort. </font>
and im back to where i began<font color="blue"> We are never totally back to where we were, but farther along the path where it looks like other parts of the path... but you are growing, and growing stronger...</font>
the ultimate choice<font color="blue">Your ultimate choice is to continue to try, do your best</font>
the ultimate betrayal<font color="blue"> To betray oneself and not give yourself the benefit of the doubt of a good future, that is the ultimate betrayal. You do not know what good stuff is ahead of you, and depression will not let you hope. </font>
im lost in my head<font color="blue">Yes. Try to quit thinking and find a distraction away from this darkness.</font>
and for once we all say the same thing<font color="blue"> Really?</font>
so over it<font color="blue">It is a tiresome task at times, this self care </font>
im done <font color="blue"> Yes, done with the same ole same ole...things can be better, things will not always be this dark. Don't beat yourself up about how you feel, it won't always be so depressed feeling.