Sorry it has taken me so long to respond... I almost felt as though I was too off to even give a proper one.

I know that some of it is the bipolar talking, yes, but when I feel this alone, I'm not sure that it's possible that it is entirely me.

bipolarchic- Nah, I work for a company I'd say is about average in size. I have also been in a transgender group before, many in fact. The thing is, I'm closer to the end of my transition, there's very little that still bothers me in the sense that I feel I would have to reach out to other transpeople. Mostly because I feel the focus of their groups, in my experience, has been dealing with the depression that comes with the wrong body. Maybe I never found the right one because that's all most of them ever really discussed... that and how hard it was coping with their parents after coming out. 2+ Years of that got mentally draining for me more than anything.... I have long since been out, and I only have one surgery left...

With the bipolar support group, I finally found one but I only get to see them 3x a month, I finally went for the first time this month so I think it's a step in the right direction Thanks for your advice

ty CANDC, I will look into it

LastQuestion- I can totally relate. I think I'm wildly popular in hypomania moments, but people genuinely seem to find that I'm a great guy.. I make them laugh and smile, and though I have my moments they see more good than bad in me. I guess that's why I was sucked in so long. I think I can relate to a lot of what you're saying... if you want, you've always got a friend in me

thanks lilypup

Thanks to all for the hugs and advice