I am glad you are alright, you could have really caused some damage to yourself. I am wondering what you were feeling at the time? And my thought is maybe because you really felt something weather good or bad is why you wanted a repeat. I know sometimes I just want to know I am alive and that I still can feel something as I go along with my depression. I don't know, I may be way off, it's just a thought. Please no more falling down the stairs and I hope you feel better soon.