I stopped coming here for awhile. I got paranoid I was being tracked as a statistic. Someone's case study to come read what we suffer or laugh at our highs. I'm still a little paranoid.

But I'm losing everything. My home, my business my job. I have my children and try to put on the happy face & keep their lives as stable as possible.

But I just want to blow up and burn down the world with me. Then the guilt for thinking this way. I don't see solutions just everything falling apart. No way out. I've ruined every opportunity I've ever had. Losing my business how will I feed my family. Where will we live. I'm scared.