Bronee~
I understand.. I still get that way at times too. I know its difficult and scarey when we remember those times. The thing I have found that helps is to try to make good ... more happier memories to help keep the bad ones at bay. Plus working thru those other memories with a T helps alot too. Dont give upon being happy again because it can happen. You can feel free !!!

(((((((((((Brawny))))))))) safe hugs to you my dear friend. Please know I am thinking of you and I am only a pm away should you need to talk to someone. I am a good listener.. I promise.

Hugz
Bethy