Hang in there and continue to try hard to communicate better at work. I know it's tough, but it's better to
have one than not. Are you seeing a pdoc and tdoc? I'm middle aged. This has completely blind sided me. It contributed to my unemployment now and in the past on numerous occasions. It's also now hindering me from gaining employment. I'm no longer the confident, smart, and career/job focused person that I once was that helped me get the jobs that I've held. I'm just a big, fat, extremely-extremely confused, stinking terd of bipolar misery.

Moral : Get all the help you can, if you aren't receiving any currently, so it cannot sink you as low as I am.