Mental health workers who are not doctors or physiologists or people who have experienced "Big T Trauma" (I can tell) keep telling me to visualise roots growing out of my feet or energética shields forming around me.

Is there an iota of evidence that this works for hyperarousal associated with having to physically grapple and be prepared to fight someone who outclasses you?

I am a very physical person. My traumas were physically threatening and requiere inmediatez physical action. I do well with direct physical interventions. Karate and yoga work for me.

Maybe if I were traumatised by psychic atrack a psychic shield would be useful to me.

I used to imagine bringing up a wall of fire around me when ex-monster did his rage thing. He was very sensitive to "energy". Obviously he sensed when I tried to feel into him and it made him angry.

Was I wrong in being so thoroughly dismayed that the psychologist who was to teach me something about PTSD wanted to teach me how to make a psychic shield around me? I learned it from reading some psychic girls website. I did enjoy and appreciate the website. What did medicaid pay this psychologist to teach me the same thing?

Am i unduly crítical?

I use visualisation all the time. I visualise my traumatised friends laughing in the sun, healed and relaxed.

I do the meditation where you breathe in what is bad and breathe it out as something good.

I know how to use my imagination to soothe my body. I did it as a little child. Scary dream about Batman. Make it a film. Make stills of the scary frames. I knew how that was done tell tv. Burn the scary stills. Sweep up the ash. Put it in a jar. Put parafin on the jar. Then a lid. Bury the jar. Plant an evergreen over it...crocuses around the evergreen, wait.for them to come up and bloom...then of course im dreaming of all these things...

If that stuff worked for ptsd I wouldnt have the symptoms I have.

Are people crazy to take me by ambulsnce from one end if the metro área to another to teach me how to put up an imaginarte shield and get so mad that I ridiculed the idea, while apparently showing some ability to work with other traumatised people that I had to be MacMurphied, slandered to other pariente and when they rebelled I had to be retraumstised and drugged punitively.

I KNOW im still hard to follow. I still go to the retraumatisation. I am still waiting for Prozac to be gone. I am still reeling from innocent error and malicious misconduct in all my attempts at ptsd treatment. Its ****ing with me.

If there is any scientific evidence that visualisation works to reduce ptsd symptoms Id like to see it.

I was just horrified when I was in the wellness center and with another client dealing with a man who suspecred hed been raped. I didnt KNOW what to do except keep him talking and show nothing but positive regaré and get him so i knew he would sit right while I got someone who could get him to hospital. A zillion mental health workers putting neurotoxic blue frosting fake in their mouths with glazed eyes and im alone working with the rape victim. Until I got a girl trained in this and thank dogs it was the compassionate empathic awake one who had talked me down. But after it was over this one said it distressed her that they all had gone to a back room to debrief, but I was excluded for confidentiality. But I needed "debriefing" because i had my own trauma and now this guys trauma. I asked what kind of debriefing they do. They visualise him drifting further and further away tell them. I was so horrified. I said for christs sake, dont do that, visualise him getting really good help, smiling at helpful nurses, walking strong and confident, looking healthy and well. Not drifting away!. Is it any wonder they are always medicating with sugar and transfats and can't do shte for anyone?

Do they visualise me drifting away? Farther and smaller, until my annoying insistence upon help can't be heard. Farther and smaller... Oh look, another green and blue cake. Made with Crisco! Let's eat it with plastic forks.

I know its not the fault of the people who work in those places. They suffer too. I see their skin and eyes and in too many a posture and body type, and I hear their complaints...if they were evil and maliciously happy it would be easier to walk away. I think that dumb woman believed teaching me how to put up a psychic shield was going to help me. She's probably tens of thousands of dollars in debt to learn that this is therapy.

It all seems so hopeless.