I identify with this thread except currently I'm not working. That is supposed to change in a couple weeks when I start my new contract job. I'm anxious about it but that's nothing new. I just wish I could see work as many of you do: a means to an end. That way, I wouldn't ruin my mental health by repeatedly "failing" and jobs and being fired due to poor attendance.

My parents support me right now but they keep warning me that the money they have is running out. I feel constatly guilty that I'm taking their hard-earned retirement money. I just wish I could work steadily on my own and take care of my self. What's wrong with me? Besides depression, anxiety and BPD...