I am usually late reading posts and responding, I hope you are through what you were experiencing. I feel you on this 100%. I understand you feeling like "I am an adult and this is just a T." My T. told me a month or so ago she might have to refer me to someone else who works with individuals with DID because she suspects thats what I have.

At that point we had been working together for 4 or 5 months which is the longest time I had ever stayed in therapy. When she told me she might have to refer me out my whole world crumbled. As dramatic as that sounds it's true. It was my mother dumping me off in the orphanage all over again. My father leaving when I was only days old. And a number of abuses I suffered (I'd rather not mention). Needless to say but I will say it anyway I was very attached to this woman who had made my world safe enough to cry for the first time in my 42 years on this earth.

Loss is a difficult thing, I hope you no longer feel like something is wrong with the way you feel about this.