Thanks HazelGirl - Why do I feel so bad? Is it abandonment fear? I am a mess. I just feel so alone and isolated from her (she said we could email once a week while we had this long break but each time she just acknowledged my emails while I told her everything that was going on). Should I tell her how much this has hurt me? Am I just being stupid and over-reacting? I long for a connection but just don't feel it with her. I am so envious of your relationship with your T. Everytime i read your posts it makes me realise what i haven't got and never will have.

Im sorry - I am hijacking someone elses thread.

Aaa