I have moments where I know this is what is wrong. Why does come in spurts like this? My mania hasn't been that exciting. I like feeling good. I don't like my mouth writing checks I can't cash, referring to the whole getting in trouble at work thing. I just want to understand and everything I've been reading isn't really helping me to understand. It appears to be the same info over and over and over. Why can't my brain wrap itself around this?