Hi George, I wish I could help you, I really do. All I can offer is a shared understanding of the mental anguish caused by OCD. I've struggled with it for over three decades and it has worsened as the years passed. I sincerely hope that your future will be different. I hope that you'll be able to find a way to overcome your OCD problems or to deal with them effectively so that they won't impede your ability to live a functional and productive life. Wishing for you, some peace of mind. Keep well and safe.