(kris); yes I agree; I am going to try and talk to him tomorrow. the thing is, he has been good to me in the past. We have had arguments and all but he still does whats in the best interests of me. I feel he can be judgemental and all; and I dont think he is too surprised that i acted the way I did. I feel bad though; I should not have hung up like that; it was very rude of me. Frustration took over but thats no excuse. I will say sorry to him and hope he accepts that. I remember when he hospitalized me before. He was so good to me. He had placed me on eating restriction because of the purging. So I refused to eat for a entire week. I was litterally shaking. He came in to talk with me and I fainted; thank fully he was right there. He caught me and put me in a chair. He said, "you have to eat or I will be forced to put in an eating tube." I told him that I would try my best if he took me off restriction. So we made a deal. He would do that if I went and talked to someone before purging. And that worked out; most of the time. We built a trust, I felt. He really is a good man. I dont think he knows how bad my eating is right now. I have not seen him in a while. I have lost 40lbs since I saw him last. I will tell him tomorrow. I am chicken though. I look sick and he will see it. My bones and mucsles are protruding out of my neck. Well what I mean is ; it looks gross. My face is really drawn. If that makes sense.
Dont worry about the congrats about the baby; but I lost the baby a couple of months ago. Dont you dare say sorry, you had no idea. So dont worry about it.
Thanks; and sorry about going on and on. One of those nights.
justme