Thanks to you all for taking the time to reply - I lost this thread for a couple of days. I have been really anxious & posting on a lot of different boards while I'm trying to figure out what's going on and how I'm feeling. Have really felt all over the place. Read through the words given me on this thread just now, though, and have found a lot of comfort in them. I see my T tomorrow and will be talking through the last week with her. I think I've been in a little bit of shock as I've now been reevaluating my history, seeing things through another lens.

So grateful that I have a place to really talk honestly and openly about whatever's going through my mind...and that there are so many here who have been where I am and can relate. Very encouraging, despite feeling so down right now.