so my husband has people coming in for business this weekend and i usually play the young happy wife (usually manic by coincidence) but right now i'm extremely depressed and have no motivation to see anyone, let alone put on heels. i know he's disappointed, in a hopeless "i can't-do-anything" kind-of-way, just like im feeling.

I wish i could be manic when i need/want to be...and then depressed later at a better time. oh-whata-wish-that-would-be...

but i guess we didn't choose to be bp and therefore also don't have the choice of when our moods change.