A little backround. Michael. I'm 22, 23 in September. I have a 3 year old son. Still with the mom just not married or living together. We both still live at home, she's in school and I'm, well, "working".
I can't seem to keep a job. Since I entered the workforce, I've worked at probably 16 different places. Everything from fast food minimum wage to $16/hr manufacturing.
The problem I have is I end up quitting every single job. I can't take it I guess. I'm a hard worker when I am there but the anxiety and stress just kills it. I seem to get a feeling inside my abdomen that is almost a pressure and I start to freak out on the inside.
I've done this since freshman year in high school. I ended up dropping out because I just didn't like being there.
Then I had my son, best thing to happen to me. I thought that would help with my quitting issue but I guess not. Possibly because I know that his great grandma will pay for stuff when I'm unemployed.
I just get sick of hearing that I need to "man up" or "deal with it" because I mentally cant. I dread work every minute of my life and it sucks. I want to enjoy life.
I haven't seen a doctor yet but I plan on it to possibly look at maybe Paxil or something. My parents and my brother are both on that and it seems to work for whatever their issues are.
Last job I had I just quit. Was suppose to be there right now but I couldn't stand it anymore. It was a gas station job.
Sorry for the long post. Would really appreciate any input.
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