Hi everyone, it's me. It's Monday morning and I pretty much faked my way through the whole weekend. I have my first counseling scheduled for Thursday but am trying to find a place closer to my home...with all the kids and such.

He totally acted like nothing happened when he came home on Friday. No sign of ANYTHING...no guilt or mention of her or anything.

I cried all night once he went to sleep. I am going to go to counseling....I can't take all your advice because I just can't confront him on knowing the stuff. Then he'll change his passwords again and this time I won't have access and then go completely crazy!

Still no ring....but when he left for work today, my stomach ache and insecurities manifested big time....He sent me an email telling me he loves me, but I don't believe him