as much as we want to be successful in life or master some of lifes challenges, our mental health has to come first. there are many things I haven't done because I had to put my mental health need first. like attending my sisters and grandmothers funeral and just last year I dropped out of grad school because the anxiety was just too much for me. I could not do that to myself for the five years it was going to take me to graduate. I was giving up a dream, but my mental health, my sanity, which I worked really hard for years to stabilize had to come first. I was hospitalized twice getting my bachelors. I couldn't go back there. think about what you really want for your life. take care.