((( :heart_spin )))
It can be very hard to talk especially when panicky.
Try just telling him how you are feeling at that moment: "I'd like to talk but I can't. The anxiety has taken over and I'm feeling angry" ....
That's good therapy!
Last week during a silence (which are good and I like that she does that, gives me time to think or just sit, look at her a little here and there...) .. anyway we had this silence and I said "I feel uncomfortable when you look at me" lol. It was a good thing to say, was honest, helped break some tension for me.
Time before that I told her that I'm a whiner. She asked what is it that makes me feel that way? (she asked so kindly and genlty!). And I said, well.... cuz people tell me I am! And we both laughed.
It is hard, but just say a bit and you will slowly get used to it. You can even say, as I also have done: "I don't know what to say" !
Not talking is a way of protecting yourself. They understand, really they do. But it is needed since they haven't yet been able to teach a T to read minds...
I know you can do it!