I too have trouble with change... I think that is part of my T's frustration and it is indeed part of my frustration to be able to let go of some of my boundaries. What a fight within. Sometimes I feel like I give lip service...to what is in my heart. Time now to put up...

I like the idea of a punching bag. Really I do. It sounds like an excellent release. I think hands on sounds good. I have done alot of screaming in closed cars... which works. I eat too much...which is not so good. I do feel better when I go to the gym.

When you say that you feel depression pretty much all of the time... is this something that you accept about yourself or is this something that you hope/expect to release through long term therapy?

Thank you for your kind positive comments about my journey. It has been a long one...and sometimes it does get hard .. Sometimes it feels better.... when not on a slide. Take care.