Big hugs. Thank you.
I had emergency call with pdoc a few days ago. She offered to give me a 6 week medical leave. I feel I need it but have to keep working. Even if we liquidate there is a lot that has to be done. I have my mom counting on me and she's the best mom ever. I have to somehow make sure she's provided for.
Anyway pdoc decided with me that I just don't want to be here right now. Not an active Sui risk. She says if it gets worse the hospital would be the place to keep me safe.
My t was out of town but I saw her today. I was 15 mins late cuz of work & so pissed I needed the full session really bad.
So today... The weird happy for no reason hypo. Woke up at 5am & was productive. Worked until 9pm tonight. Feeling sexual out of the blue. Now I can't sleep. I do take some meds. But still have the phases. At least I have no desire to drink like sometimes. Old flame just bootie called me & I'm proud to say I ignored . It's like I go hypo & they can smell it or something lol.
What I don't like about weird happy hypo when my world is going to **** - is the impending crash of doom. Is it inevitable or will I ride the wave?
Guess I have to wait for the morning to see what mood awaits... Right now I feel like I can tackle another day.
I sent my boss some *****y email tonight. (I had to sell my biz a year ago but still run it. It's all I've known for 20 years). It could backfire but I'm not going to put up with his condescending ******** when I'm a hard worker & I'm ****ing smart & an asset to any company. I can find another job when it comes to that. Grandiose maybe. Oh well it's part of the gig.
Praying I won't be back here crying tomorrow.