This has been a rough month for me in general after 9 months of being stable. My son's Bar Mitzvah is in 2 weeks and the stress of that may have set this awful ball rolling. Anyway...I was reading something he wrote last night and in it he thanked me for always being there and loving him, and he thanked my husband for being the best dad in the world and for always making him laugh. I interpreted this as to the kids not liking me (I have not always been the easiest mom to live with) and that they don't even want me in their life etc etc etc. I spent about half an hour curled in the corner of the bathroom crying. This morning I woke up and am fine- none of those feelings anymore. Does anyone else get those overwhelming awful waves of emotion? That's how I think of them, as waves, because they roll in and roll out.
I have also been super, super tired and just feel more out of it and less "on the ball" lately. Can stress/anxiety do this? It's like my brain is 2 steps behind. I have had no med changes and just had a physical so that isn't it.
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