Ok, this is certainly something I don't remember doing before, this is kind of a recent development.... but I'm talking to myself a lot more and whispering expletives and stuff, I can't seem to control it, I sort of do it to break my train of thought, when my thoughts go bad. I make weird faces too, or do something random and spontaneous like kicking an inanimate object to put me off my thoughts... I do it only when I'm out, not a home.

My friend said I'm really acting weird, and I'm glad he did, because I didn't realize this until he told me.