I guess my real problem is that I'm reluctant to talk to my doctor (PC or psych). They'll only tell me I look fine and that I don't need to lose any weight. I can't get them to understand that though I could probably learn to accept my weight (UGH), it's the FEELING inside of being fat that I can't tolerate. I'm very happy with my doctors, but they just don't get this, even though I have had a severe episode of the disease that required hospitalization.

Thanks for your concern!

PS - I have a question about forum rules. Are we not supposed to give numbers, like weight or kcal ingested?