Hi there. Rough time of it right now, huh? I think most of us have been there, I know I have. One thing I do is call the crisis lines and talk. Even if I am not out and out suicidal, I will call a crisis line before I get to that point. It is a good thing to do, because when it gets this bad, it IS a crisis. And there are so many of them. I like the NAMI crisis lines. It helps to talk to someone who is not part of your life. I can't talk to my partner, either. Just do whatever you can to distract yourself and get through the day. I am sending you good thoughts.