Hi folks.

Yeah, my doc did increase my dose. I've been on it for six months, sooo...I don't know. I'm on 20 mg right now. He didn't want to increase it further until I got better councilling.

No, my seizures are not well controlled. I mean, it's relative. I have had way worse times than now, as far as seizures go. But I have little seizures all the time. (By 'little seizures' , I mean simple partials and complex partials.) I have never been able to drive. I can't work. I take carbatrol, zonegran, and ativan when I need it to stop the seizures.

I have been feeling so bad for so long. At least now I'm getting something done. At least my doctor is helping me. I always kind of put myself down for being sad, as if I've failed to accomplish yet one more thing. The doc says it's neurological, though.

That makes sense, if it's a brain thing, a brain chemical thing, or an epilepsy-related thing. Honetly, I feel like it's beyond my control. Different seizure meds have made me very depressed and when I decreased the dose I felt better, so I know it can be a chemical thing.

Also, Sabau2, you mentioned the VNS. I asked my doc about that and he says I can't have it. He wants me to have brain surgery for my seizures. I am horrified by that idea. I would have to be awake while they remove part of my brain!!! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEk!!!