Throughout each day I am bombarded with intrusive thoughts of things that I have said or done wrong. I believe that I have either caused pain to another person, or that I have caused them to dislike me, or sometimes it's a confusion of not knowing whether or not what I said was wrong. Any which way, I hate myself. I hum bits of a tune to block these thoughts out when they enter my mind - the humming is an automatic response, or sometimes it's a sigh. It's been going on for years.
Wikipedia defines Delusion of guilt/self-accusation as "an ungrounded feeling of remorse or guilt of delusional intensity." This sounds right, but the thoughts seem OCD to me, also. Does anyone have this problem? Could it be both?
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