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Old Aug 27, 2014, 07:29 PM
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Told my husband I wanted to die and that I feel like the end is near. I wish I could say I don't want to die but that would be a lie. He asked me if I could imagine even one day of not waking up to my babies. I didn't know what to say except that I couldn't and he said there, that's what you have to live for. He's right! I wish that changed my complete apathy. I hate it. I hate me. Other than that, taking care of my kids, picking up my daughter from school and doing the dishes, I just listened to music and stared at the ceiling. My life is meaningless.
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now

Tori Amos ~ Crucify

Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder
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