Perna, thank you for your response. Yes I've talked to my new t about the loss and sense of betrayal, but I think I may have not spent sufficient time on the pain of the loss.
I will try to get ahold of the book you mention, Women who run with the wolves.
Yes I've spent time observing the details in her office....it helps ground me a bit....
About me feeling guilt over abandoning the old t....hm, I think this merits some more thought....I think there's some truth there....to be explored oh yes....