I have taught kids drama before... I guess I feel under-qualified. But really I don't have many qualifications in any field... I haven't the experience yet. I always have felt that I would want some experience in any field that I decided to teach in. I want to feel capable, experienced, and authoritative in what I teach, if I decide to do so. I don't feel that way about theater, though I love it.
It's hard to explain. It's kind of like when I first left dance school, I would get depressed after seeing professional dancers, because I kept thinking "that could have been me but now it never will" or worse, "I was never capable of reaching that level". It's a totally useless thought process, and maybe irrelevant to my current life, except I haven't decided what else to do.
I haven't had enough different experiences in life yet to settle on one thing. It makes me sad because i know there's a time limit to being a professional dancer at least, so the more I dawdle, the less chance I have of going that route. My parents have said I should see more of the world, meet new people etc... I just have to wonder if this is a real solution.
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