I discussed this at mental health clinic during my last visit. I'm told it's how bipolar affects my behavior. I just can't deal with people any longer. I was in retail type sales positions for 15 years and included getting fired 3 times. I hate people, unless it's just shooting the bull conversations. For the last 3 years,, I have been having major issues when out in public at grocery stores, restaurants, Wal Mart, and etc. I have these mood swings if something upsets me and I use profanity in my language dealing with them.

I want to stop and I pray constantly to stop, Short of cutting my tongue off, I don't know what to do. It's because of mood swings. I don't talk or act like that if/when I am calm.

Anyone know what kind of bipolar meds help to keep a person calm and mellow?

I'm on Depacote currently. The only thing positive so far after 10 months is suicidal tendencies have diminished somewhat, but I'm still having mood swings.

The mood swings are why I am so terrified to be around people and why I'm terrified to try to get back to work, even though I will very soon be in financial crisis. I think that's weighing down on me as well and amplifying my bipolar.

Any suggestions? Do I use nylon or cotton rope (j/k)

WHY CAN'T I WAKE UP AND SNAP OUT OF THIS FUNK OF A HAZE that's keeping me from moving forward with my life. It's as though my life has been put on limbo because of this shite.
I would understand if it was cancer or a stroke, but come on. Why can't I ****'n shake this?