I don't really have that much to say. I'm just so down and I feel so lonely. It's my own fault for being so lonely thought.. I really believe that I'm not capable of human interaction. In the past three years or so the only people that I have had a conversation with are my parents and sister. After awhile you lose things to talk about... besides, they actually have a social life unlike me.

For the most part I've gotten used to being anti-social... I've never really talked that much anyways when I was out in public so it's not so different. I don't focus my thoughts around this, but every now and then I think about how sad it is to be me... lonely, depressed, going crazy with worrisome thoughts and OCD... and it makes me very sad. I don't feel like I have the energy to do anything. I guess I felt the need to vent a little about this now because I actually had a few things to say tonight, but everyone was too busy or tired to listen. I don't blame them though... they actually have lives they need to tend to.