You must be an increible mom to give up this man you love.
I have to say your children must be special too!!!
When a woman has children she comes with a package, and if somebody trully loves you, loves you with everything else that comes along with you!!!!
It sounds to me your children rescue you from the "wrong guy". And eve, you are hurting now, this shall pass too.
Hung in there and love your children. The right man will come along one day.

gab