I am a prisinor of my self. Captured in my undieng need to be something else than i truly and deeply am. I attack fiersly if i'm critisied.if i am put on the same level. on the other hand and at the same time i realize that i am nothing of what i want to be. It makes me angry, so deeply hurt and so deeply paralized that i do alot to seem to be what i want:strong,beutifull,wanted, needed,above others. Almost godlike.

But i can be berfectly satisfied to be next to a person who seems to be all of that aslong as i am the importanr person to him. Fiance, bestfriend,soulmate etc.

But i am not a classic N. I am covert N.

I burst to flames if i think u judge me. I "forgive " if i can be above u by it. I can imitate feelings, lie, manipulate. And very often do it without realizing that i am doing it.

But i would like to be happy with myself, in peace. Goal i think i will never achieve.