down. down. down.
self loathing at it's peak.
emptiness prevalent.
urges to sui and si are overwhelming.
hate being here.

i can't seem to find a sense of closure over my friend's passing. it's eating away at me.

concentration sucks. when i look at the things i have to do, how there's an essay due next week... all i wanna do is huddle in a corner and cry. i dont feel like going to school anymore. what's even better? exams are around the corner.

what's even even better? i look like the cheerful herethennow who doesn't seem to have a problem in the world. tired of this facade. i just wanna strip it off.