gosh thankyou everyone for your input i really apreciate it. things have changed yet again lol. i saw a crisis psychiatrist at the weekend who asked me not to go to the alternative therapist, but carry on with my docs counsellor and made me an appoinjtment with a psychiatrist to change my meds cos they are totally wrong for me. he is starting from scratch, diagnosing, altering my meds and finding me a psychotherapist for long term help. so everything is great for me, this is what i have been waiting for, apparently the prozac has been making me worse. so thankyou all so so much for replying, i love you all for caring and i'll keep you posted. whew, sigh of relief, i am so happy i am now being listened to properly by a proffessional.

thankyou again to all who replied,

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