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Old Aug 28, 2014, 11:50 AM
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Originally Posted by Lmciyah View Post
Ditto about a tough profession for a bipolar. And, she wishes sometimes she can go back to retail. Retail may be less streesful than teaching, but it's so stressful to me that I can't go back to it after being in it for 15 years. Sometimes I wish I had never started bipolar treatment. In fact sometimes I wish I had never went to the clinic and found out. Maybe I could have found another job and so what if I made the same behavioral mistakes and got fired, at least I would have been trying.

After starting all of this treatment and meds, I am no better off. In fact I am worse off because I have less savings now and still no job because I honestly feel as though no employer wants a mid aged male with a mental disorder and back issues. I wouldn't want to hire myself so why should anyone else. I've been hoping I will get some ssdi to assist me while I continue to try and figure the bipolar crap out and how to move forward.

Unfortunately, I will be completely broke in about 6 months. I won't need therapy, meds, or my ssdi hearing once that happens. All that will be needed is an urn.
I guess we all have different definitions of stressful, right? When I was in retail I loathed it and that's why I stayed in college. Of course my symptoms were in remission then for the most part. Now it's all I feel I could handle. Or going back to being a paraprofessional in the school system instead of a teacher.

You'll be ok lmcyah. Something will come through for you. Bipolar can't beat us. It can't beat any of us.

I feel a little bit more productive today but still unbelievably anxious. The thought of doing lesson plans is paralyzing me. I'm so scared of doing poorly.

You'll be ok. I'll be ok. It has to be ok:
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