Ditto about a tough profession for a bipolar. And, she wishes sometimes she can go back to retail. Retail may be less streesful than teaching, but it's so stressful to me that I can't go back to it after being in it for 15 years. Sometimes I wish I had never started bipolar treatment. In fact sometimes I wish I had never went to the clinic and found out. Maybe I could have found another job and so what if I made the same behavioral mistakes and got fired, at least I would have been trying.

After starting all of this treatment and meds, I am no better off. In fact I am worse off because I have less savings now and still no job because I honestly feel as though no employer wants a mid aged male with a mental disorder and back issues. I wouldn't want to hire myself so why should anyone else. I've been hoping I will get some ssdi to assist me while I continue to try and figure the bipolar crap out and how to move forward.

Unfortunately, I will be completely broke in about 6 months. I won't need therapy, meds, or my ssdi hearing once that happens. All that will be needed is an urn.