Hi helpmeimfalling, if it is because you want to let people know how much you're hurting I wouldn't say it was selfish at all. In fact I'd say it was good that you wanted to let them/someone/anyone know.
It'd just be far better if you could let them/someone know another way what it's really like for you, the full story and get some (more?) real support with that hey??
So is there anyone you may consider starting to open up a bit more to, or telling them what's going on?
Although you know you can talk to us as well, we're not going to judge you, but if we can give you some understanding.......some support with everything..........

Alison