I'm the same way. I'm a certified welder by trade but have decided I can no longer do it bc of the stressors involved in my work place. So I quit before having an episode and took on a customer service job. Which I've never ever done. But for some reason knowing I don't have the pressures of having to lay down the perfect weld or screwing something up that costs hundreds of $$ to fix is a huge weight off my shoulders. You'll make it through this or decide its in your best interest to not be involved in a job that stressful. You'll find your path, and when you do, light that baby up!