so other T texted me today and said that we are having a team meeting tomorrow. every time they say that i am in trouble for something, usually my drug test. so i was really anxious and he was being vague abt why the need for a meeting. finally he got more specific and said my drug test came up positive for alcohol!!!!!!!

i did not drink and haven't in a LONG time. i am not sure why it's pos for that. the only thing i can think of is i was drinking warm grape juice over the weekend. is it possible it fermented??? it didn't taste weird or anything. i texted other T and told him that i dont understand bc i havent drank alcohol. he seemed to believe me. i texted my regular T and told him. he said he believes me and not to worry, just tell them the truth.

but anyway all this just adds up with everything else. people trying to make me feel upset. it's like they are gaslighting me. when he said it was pos for alcohol i was even thinking if maybe i DID drink and i just dont remember it??? it makes me feel crazy. is that their goal??? are they doing this on purpose???

i dont know.