I'm running for goddess next week? I'd appreciate your vote :-)

One thing I happened on accidentally many years ago was having my own goals/objectives, not just looking for them while in therapy.

My work life changed dramatically when I figured out "why" I was working, what I "wanted" (I started working part-time so I could "get" new jobs (scary) and quit them at will (even scarier). I guess some of Barbara Sher's book, Wishcraft helped there: http://www.wishcraft.com/

My schooling accidentally got 1000% better when I was 41 and taking accounting, just to keep a friend company as she had to have the course for work (local community college). I found I loved the course and was good at it but had my usual problems of not wanting to go to class, do the work, etc. I struggled all semester but did pretty well, probably because my friend was involved but in the middle of the final exam I had an epiphany where I didn't quite remember something I wanted to and realized it was because I hadn't applied myself as hard as I could have and that it was 1000% my "fault"/pain/disappointment. No stepmother was standing over me with a whip, the professor didn't care how I did, my husband didn't care how I did (I already had a degree, good job, etc.) it was all "Me".

The same thing happened in therapy as I've noted a couple times; I got to the end of a session with the sense we hadn't been on the "right" topic and told my T and she thought about it and agreed with me. Incredulous anger for 2 seconds while I wondered why she hadn't done anything about it :-) and then the realization (like a ton of bricks :-) that it was my therapy and I was the only one "in charge" and/or she and I are a team, and it wasn't her "job" to figure out the topic, but mine.

I've been journaling, especially with "workbooks" of one sort of another (changed my life with Julia Cameron's The Artist's Way) and focusing on me, personally, in many ways regardless of what has been happening in the rest of my life, even in therapy. It's like I'm a separate "task"/chunk in my life :-) I don't know, withit, but maybe that's what you're thinking of with your "self awareness". Have you ever deliberately looked at that self awareness and found where it's coming from? I'd find a book or two and see if you can't coax it to come out, unrelated to your therapy? If you can get talking to it again, just you and It :-) then maybe you can move it back into therapy that way?