I feel really bad right now. like nobody wants to be close to me because I am horrible in every way. there is nothing that could make anyone want to be around me. dunno what to say. it is just like that.
don't think any optimistic thinking can change anything. that's delusional.
just took the subway home. and on the platform every single woman that was there was at least one size skinnier than me. feeling like crap. if I were a guy I would also choose them over me.
yeah, I know. this is superficial. but all the other women are just as clever and interesting. they travel to more countries, do their phds. whatever… I have nothing to compete.
I am even too insignificant for anyone to talk to me. I feel like I was not even a human being. just a nuisance.