For a couple of weeks now I've come to realize I was sexually abused although the memories are still vague. Four days ago I had a terrifying dream of being sexually abused as a child and it felt so real like it was actually happening again. I was so scared I tried to keep from falling asleep again for fear I'd have the dream again. I've never been that afraid of a dream before.

In spite of all this, I now feel nothing. Feels like I'm floating through my day. Not happy, not sad. I can laugh and smile, but not one emotion is more pronounced than the next. I continue to get a couple of dull headaches. I feel kind of numb, but at the same time okay. Maybe my new antidepressant is doing its magic.

Is this a calm before the storm or is it over, meaning are the memories and flashbacks over? Can that be possible? Or am I retreating into dissociation?