so this is getting under my skin I have a lot of things in my life that have contributed to myself esteem issues a lot in the past and also right now.

but I am making myself have a more positive outlook on things in my life so that I can have a more hopeful out look on things.

What I don't understand is. When I do this there is always a voice in my head saying are you really sure? Are you sure this relationship is worth fighting for? Are you sure you will keep the two jobs you have now? are you sure you want to do this? Am I really as pretty as he says I am? I don't feel pretty today?

these kinds of thoughts keep floating about in my head and it annoys me to no end. Why is it I can think in a positive way but then I seem to question it.

my thought is I am so used to being around negative people that question lots of different things a lot.
so its a habit that I obtained from when I was young from my family.