Your husband was right. I have always said, and taken my own advice, if you were to take your own life, you are just transferring your pain to someone else.

My last attempt was 3 years ago. My kids didn't understand why I didn't feel like they were worth living for. Even as hard as it gets for me I swore I would never do it again and I won't. I'll be damned if I put my kids through that. Your life isn't meaningless, you're just lost right now and the depression has taken over. Fight back.