I'm dreading it. Four whole months of constant worry, guilt, and the pervasive feeling that I'll get caught and punished for "being a bad student" and for not doing well enough to get a good grade.

Every spare minute of my time will be spent worrying that I really should get everything done right now. Do it now when I'm only somewhat tired, or do it at the end of the term when I'll be utterly exhausted, unable to think, and resentful at myself for waiting until the last minute. A good student would know to do it now so she can relax, but I know I'll procrastinate and resent. That's why I'm a bad student.

I wish I were a good student so I wouldn't have to worry. But apparently I don't wish for it enough to actually apply myself.