{{{{{{{{{{{{{Justme}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} You express so much self knowlege. You see the pattern in your self injury. This is a good thing, this is a beginning, a middle and an end to the problem. Seeing it as you do doesn't fix it but it makes it possible to fix it. Use your knowlege to keep yourself safe. You are important to you kids even when your mind convinces yourself otherwise so even when they are not there they still need you. Do not abandon them through killing yourself. By being there for them you will learn to be there for yourself.
You are in my thoughts dear one,
Carrie

<font color=blue>If you have two dollars, spend one on bread and the other on flowers. The bread will feed your body and the flowers will feed your soul."--Arabic Saying