Another update from me. I suppose I had suspected that identifying as nonbinary/genderqueer wasn't the end of it for me. I had a weird epiphany-like moment about a week ago, and I finally understood that I'm ftm trans and that I need to transition.

The realization was followed by elation then panic. Now a very mixed bag of emotions. My biggest worry right now is how this will affect my husband [emoji25] . But then I'm also worrying about (by comparison) ridiculous stuff, like, will t make me overweight, and how quickly will I lose my hair on t? Never imagined myself going bald [emoji33] [emoji15] .