I've been diagnoised with Cyclothmia which is like a Bipolar III. I also have anxiety. I don't feel on the inside like I present on the outside. I walk around with a smile on my face and can't wait to get home to cry. I feel so irritable inside. People really %#@&#! me off on the inside, but I don't ever show it. If peole knew what I was really like they would hate me. I am all or nothing. I have to get everything done in order to stop or eat. Last Saturday I was mowing the grass and was feeling out of breath. I then started to panic thinking I was having a hard attack. I still wouldn't let myself stop until I was done.
I wear myself out. I have no balance in my life at all.